Showing posts with label what I'm looking for. Show all posts
Showing posts with label what I'm looking for. Show all posts

Monday, January 25, 2016

What I'm Looking For

"I hope you find what you're looking for." That's one of the last things one of my friends from Chicago told me before I moved down to Austin. 

Recently that phrase has been ringing in my head. I hope so too. But what am I looking for? And will this move really help me find it? 

Well... I'm not really in the market for a ton of new friends (meaning I have some really great ones that are irreplaceable) not that I'm not going to make friends here. I'm not looking for a place to call my home because I have 2 homes really - Chicago & KC. I'm not really looking for a career path (I have a pretty good one). And I am certainly not looking for a husband - Lord knows if I'll ever be ready for that again. 

So maybe I'm really looking to find myself - or really a purpose/direction for myself. I moved to Austin because I wanted to go somewhere by myself - for myself - and prove that I could do that. And I did. 

So now what? I guess I want to define myself. I realized in Chicago that I didn't want to be defined by my relationship or my job. But I was falling into that trap with so many distractions. I guess Austin gives me the freedom to redefine myself and figure out who I am. No one here really knows me and not really knowing many people, I find that I have a lot more free time to "figure things out." ;) 

Sounds daunting, I know. But I'm giving myself small goals but not a ton of structure. And, in parallel, I'm focusing my efforts on finding my favorite taco place here in Austin.